i want to share

i want to give of my heart...want to share to the depths of my soul~
i sometimes wonder is it just me or does everyone have such needs, is it a part of all of us to want to be known, for who we think we are, as much as to know others?

when we are feeling at a loss with certain things, I think maybe it comforts us to step back and tell ourselves who we are, sort of, that we can withstand, and move forward, and sometimes, since self-talk is not all that applauded, we just need to explain who we are to someone...sometimes it can be almost anyone

we can tell them, I'm fierce! or I'm sad, we can point out that we are dynamic or challenged or dangerous to love, that we are flexible, sensitive, alert and aware...that we will triumph and grow regardless of life's systems thrown at us at break-neck speeds...feels light light speed at times.

we have a side to us that longs to express our genuine nature, who we are authentically...or well then there are all those liars, and yeah, i lie sometimes to, but mostly to myself so that i won't know it if i am lying to you
but mostly we want to be showing who we really are, so that we see we ARE still acceptable warts and all as they say, and that even our warts (and all that ass, or fill in the _________ ) so that we can move forward with a smile if only on the outside, but lurking somewhere within we can know, somebody is affected by us

for instance if we are angry, and we yell at the one who took us to that place...we can see that the yelling at them has caused a ripple of emotion, that we are effective in life!
If that is what makes all these angry mutts in the world happy, to make me (for instance) angry, then i am glad you are so happy to be so angry...and to have had the effect of pissing off the next person, 'cause now i am angry with you too, and if that is your particular bliss well then have at it say i

at the very least, you have used your anger constructively, and made another person feel a like-type of emoting and we are emoting anger together now, and very effecting angering one another, it's cool
or does that work very well? well it seems to be a cool thing to do in Los Angeles
I guess...well,  at least its authentic but i wish us human creatures would be more aligned and inclined to touch and reach for our better parts and find that more pleasant (also) authentic feeling inside and tell us all about that part ah you, putting us in a peaceful tranquil mode of being

we can give of our heart and soul by being authentically angered too i suppose
better than to lie, as if nothing is bothering you if your pissed, and shove it deep inside, forever, until you end up in the mental ward for sure, like i have done...but all of that was worth the lessons I took from it

our emotions all serve us in some way, they each have something to give t us
if we allow ourselves to feel, truly feel our current emotions, even if they are all akimbo, all jumbled up, if we try hard enough with some thought (we may have to turn some things off)...no, I mean the telephone, television, the radio or ipod, and like that...when we turn off the things that cause us to distract ourselves from our feelings, we can usually decipher whats going on inside

well that is if we are not completely fragmented needing years of therapy to just get a grip on who we maybe REALLY are

we can begin to see that, we have anger caused by sadness and and sadness coming from lashing out in anger, at someone we really love and, or even, Or  we may find we have happiness associated with those we love, but are holding a deep resentment about one particular vice they have, or one nagging ache over something they have done to us...it all counts. if we give ourselves time we may think and rationalize why we should continue to hold onto certain emotions, sometimes hurt means we stay apart and don't allow more hurt from that person...maybe that person is caught in a trap of negativity toward you, and it is best to stay away for now,
when we think on our feelings, and take them apart, examining why and how we might let go of unhealthy ones...
we usually find that we re pretty smart and can come up with startling, amazing unconventional creative answers to fix the problems, thus eliminating or quelling the negative points of emotion connected to that, and increasing our ability to dispel negative emotions where that is concerned in  future times

  know people have these astounding ability's to decipher how to solve their problems once they really think on them, and exploring how we feel...may have gone out of style in the media but it has not ever gone out of fashion with anyone determined to know themselves and what it means to be human and humane, to evolve as we age, to grow as we live, to Live and not just survive, to thrive and not just get by...but not many these days seem to be taking the time to THINK

i would like to recommend it more thoughts on our feelings, more self talk, more rational behavior



i want my heart to float about on gossamer wings,
i want for you to see me through,
i want to see you trough things too
that i think, is what we are here for