you just dropped your pants on the sand
i grabbed your hand
led you over the rocks and back
behind that ragged coconut tree
listening closely to the waves
crashing after our lovemaking made me
feel so free...
you were my home,
my church, my reverie
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drink time in, let it out...
faces fading from my mind over time
going down on my knees in pain,
a hard night
crying over it dosn't change a thing
it's all happening so fast
a dark rain (reigned) heart will burst
if i don't get some air
lying here, sleep can't come
there you sat, on my belly
fist struck again, again

the names are worse than the beating
like you wanted then i slept...walking

the names were hurtful only when
i could really live again
broken bones, they will mend
broken loves, breaking me
i can't swim if i cant see
dawn return from this night...
lord forgive me
for my fright i wanna live
i have these dreams i fight to win

dreams live in me
they found a place where
they can thrive see?
i hold them all and keep them dear
even when i know most won't appear
for me in this lifetime
, nor in the next
and yet i pretend that im not vexed about
all this pain this sore disease
this crying place this town that bleeds
out
little dramas every day
and daddys /mommas gone away
or mamas babies
doing drugs...or babies crying
over never ever, ever getting hugs

while people party like
there is no tomorrow because they
been fed the show
from a very very long ill
time ago or hopelessly
they were born to run
and in this scene they have
been captured by demonic angels in
the rapture
dark pain filled cavity they
call their minds...i hope
they recover soon
hope they find some sus
in living, some peace and care
some solice there