hypersensitive

There are in fact four significant stumbling blocks in the way of grasping the truth, which hinder everyman however learned, and scarcely allow anyone to win a clear title to wisdom, namely the example of weak and unworthy authority, longstanding custom, the feeling of the ignorant crowd, and the hiding of our own ignorance while making a display of our apparent knowledge.
Roger Bacon

Anonymous pamphlets, leaflets, brochures and even books have played an important role in the progress of mankind. Persecuted groups and sects from time to time throughout history have been able to criticize the oppressive practices and laws either anonymously or not at all, it is plain that anonymity has sometimes been assumed for the most constructive purposes.
Justice Hugo L. Black

Perdition...a powerful word that explains so much with so little need for further expansion.  But only if, only when...the hearer has been through such times on their own. A form of poverty of spirit, that comes from trials, that may be vanquished with true-blue strength, a fair plan, often secretive, and a whole bunch of  "stick-to-it-tiveness" and moxy to spare doesn't hurt. Well I personally, would be more the kind to need to meet my personal perdition with a lot of patience and cunning, yes, a waiting game, a will of wits, and some moxie with some very tender ways. Apparently I was becoming... a sensitive warrior, shall we say, through having been given a foul dose of the stuff of madness. Yes, I became a 'hypersensitive' girl, but not from my having a choice of my own in the matter. One merely deals with the blows life's brings by caving in and closing down internally (only for sissies) or by forming a suitable plan and commencing to execute said plan once it is made foolproof, or so one thinks.

The hyper state of being came from a feeling, from a great need to be thoroughly aware of ones current, (past) or potential future surroundings, examining these circumstances closely so that any nuance of offence would be immediately noticed,  clearly outlined in the mind and noted down for memory, that it be recognized, be categorized, and explained to the self, and that if a pattern was realized within, it be secondly noted down for memory's sake...as potentially abusive, invasive, restrictive of freedoms, unsavory, uncouth, undesirable, unsuitable for the moment, unsparing of  sensitive feelings, uncaring, destroying, hurtful, unkind, mean, sticky, preachy, unpalatable, outright disparaging, undermining...unbearable, torturous, belittling, damning, obstinate or otherwise unconscionable, overly-critical or somewhat shameful to behold or consider.
These were some of my hobbies and habits of childhood.

I didn't only just categorize what was despicable, disgraceful, or demeaning on a daily basis (by others) and log it for future reference, I also watched myself closely for the unhealthy, uncouthly ways, and before letting destroying words and meanings slip from my clinched tongue and gently smiling mouth, i would examine potential ways to say what I meant with the utmost care, and then having thought through often three, four, even five or more ways to say something in the sweetest favorable light (id reckon keeping many waiting a bit) before id answer any given questioning, I would say things in the floweriest ways to suit a persons own known constitution and bearing. Of course if i didn't know them i could not relax quite so much, one must be on their guard so as not to hurt the sensitive person to the core with unthoughtful out ridiculousness . One must take gentile care to not injure a person, (when you understand injury) and when it is your ultimate deepest heartfelt goal and fervent wish to slay the evil, that is insult and injury, to slay it forthright, once and for all time. One must be ready for ANYTHING, in this odd world, you know!