you have gone HOME

an angel has flown up to heaven this morning
so fast
SO so fast
gone on home before me
before the rest of us
still here on this blue & green turf we call home

you have gone from the earth but not gone
you have joined together with those who truly loved me and do
but not left me
and you will understand now i feel,
and that, that is a great relief and a balm to me

the burden of the things that you didn't, couldn't possibly understand is over
the angst that went along with that burden is relieved and yet
replaced with all the things we might have done and ways we might have loved
one another

the fact you have gone before me i may be a bit jealous over
envy may be a better word
i have so long entertained thoughts of the day i too will be blessed to leave this
oft cruel world behind to rest

you have gone on to be at real PEACE and with hope and all those delights
that only being one with the SOURCE will Bring you
I do so, in a way, wish i had parted away with thee
an angel of earth

to be human is such a sad experience at times
we all secretly or willfully express our wish to go HOME
yet when someone takes it to their breast to go on
it is a surrender that i await with high hopes, somehow

you Will perhaps know now what it is to be me
that is a comfort i will hold dear
perhaps you (for the very first time) understand what i wanted to let you know
and WHY...and how i loved and do love your child
almost as if he were my very own

Maybe i loved him, in some ways, as well as you loved him
maybe a different sort of love has passed here with he and me and yet it is
the sort,  as sweetly unconventional,l yet, unconditional as i am able to give
the Best i have in me to share, please do admire this in me

i am happy for you, to be home with the LOVE
i am so glad you won't have the same earthy pains
i assure you i have never intentioned to cause you any true pains
wanting only for you to become open to truths and welcome them in

days and days and years have passed and i have not tried to know you better
and this is my dark regret...let it pass from me in time
i do recognise how this is sort of Plea from the heavens that i should not
continue in this station, that i should reckon to change and change i must

that any who misunderstand me now will come to see me in time and through God
that all of them will Forgive me as i should Vow this Day to Forgive and try, Honor myself

no way can I ever change the earthly past but to say i hope that you know I do wish
that i had deemed to be more openly communicating with you
of the true care I felt for you and yours
while you yet lived here on Earth

let us never be so far apart again in Life, in this life there is little reason for
so much misunderstanding and lack of trust and care
we are free now to explore the future together, with kin alike,
and kind they are and gentle too
we are free to share Love now that you will have more reason
Love as it is meant to be shared, Dear Shirley
...please forgive our misunderstandings as i do

and Enjoy your old Home and send us your BLESSINGS

God Bless Us All, Each and Everyone